Watching World Cup Alone

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It’s 2:47 AM on a Tuesday in November 2026. My apartment in Brooklyn is dark except for the blue glow of my TV. Brazil vs. Argentina. World Cup semifinal. I’m sitting on the floor with a half-eaten bag of chips because I couldn’t even bother to grab a plate. My phone hasn’t buzzed once in three hours.

I haven’t told anyone I’m watching this. Not my coworker Dave who lives three blocks away. Not my college roommate Marcus who I still text most weeks. There’s a group chat — 47 people in it, mostly from the office — and nobody’s posted since the third match of the group stage. We’re all watching alone. None of us are talking about it.

The apartment that used to have people in it

I moved here in 2021. Right after I left grad school. The couch I’m sitting on was bought specifically because four people could fit on it. I had this vision — friends over, watch parties, somebody bringing beer, the whole thing. In the first year I think I hosted maybe seven or eight times.

Now it’s 2026 and I just realized I haven’t had anyone over since February. February 14th, actually. My friend Priya came over for her birthday and we ordered Thai and watched some documentary about BTS. That was seven months ago.

This is the part where I’d normally say something like “and I’m starting to realize how isolated I’ve become.” But I don’t think that’s quite right. I think I knew the whole time. I think I’ve been arranging my apartment around being alone for years and calling it minimalist.

The phone thing is worse than the silence

The silence would actually be okay. People who live alone get used to silence. You read, you cook, you clean, you go to bed. The thing that gets you is the phone. Specifically — the phone doing nothing.

I checked it twenty minutes ago. 2:31 AM. No notifications. I checked it again at 2:38. Still nothing. I just opened Twitter — I mean X — and nobody I follow is even posting about the match. They’re posting about their work deadlines, their dinners, their kids. The match is happening to me and approximately 4.2 billion other humans and somehow none of them are in my feed.

I know that sounds dramatic. I know it sounds like I need to “log off” or “touch grass” or whatever people say now. But here’s what I want someone to explain to me: when did the World Cup stop being a thing you watch with people? When did it become a thing you watch on your couch at 2:47 AM with chips on the floor?

2AM thoughts you can’t tell anyone

Brazil just scored. Or wait, Argentina. I don’t even know which team I wanted pulled toward. I picked one because if I didn’t pick one I’d feel weirder.

My chest is going tight. Not the medical kind, the kind where you realize you’ve been holding your breath for thirty seconds. The kind where you can feel your own heartbeat in your ears. My palms are sweating and I’m on my own couch.

I think what I’m feeling is: I want someone to be in the room with me right now and I don’t know who that would be. That’s a weird sentence. It’s not like I have nobody. I have friends. I have a best friend. I have coworkers I’m genuinely close to. But “I’m watching the World Cup semifinal at 2:47 AM and I want you to come over” is not a text you send to anyone when you’re 34 and live in Brooklyn.

I think about this — the gap between having people and having people around — a lot. I had a therapist for a while who called it “social starvation.” I stopped going because I felt weird crying to a stranger about being lonely in a city of 8 million people. It felt embarrassing. She said that was the loneliness talking, not me. I stopped going anyway.

The thing about group chats is how they die

I was in a group chat in 2019 with twelve people from college. We used to message it every day. By 2021 we were down to maybe a message a week. By 2024 it was birthdays only. Last month someone sent “happy birthday [name]!” and that was it. The chat is technically still there. I check it sometimes. Nothing.

The work group chat is the same. 47 people. It’s where I learned that Dave from accounting got a dog. It’s where I learned my manager’s wife had a baby. It’s where I learned that my company was laying off 12% of staff in March. None of those messages led to anything. None of them ever did. We all just read them and kept scrolling.

I think about the group chat sometimes the way you think about an ex. Like — was that real? Did we actually like each other or did we just happen to be in the same Slack channel?

A goal at 89 minutes feels different alone

The match ended 2-1. Argentina, I think. Or Brazil. I genuinely don’t remember. The whole point of a semifinal is that one team is now one game away from a World Cup final and the other team is going home. There should be something. There should be drama. There should be someone to high-five.

There was just me and my chips and the apartment.

I turned the TV off at 3:22 AM. I didn’t brush my teeth. I just put on an old hoodie and got into bed. I lay there for what felt like forty minutes, maybe more. I thought about texting someone — Marcus, Priya, my sister — but I didn’t know what I’d say. “Watched the semifinal” feels too small. “Feeling weird about watching it alone” feels too much.

I eventually fell asleep around 3:50. I had a meeting at 9. I slept through the alarm. I woke up at 9:23 and lay there for another ten minutes because what was the point of rushing.

What I keep not saying

Here’s the thing I keep not saying out loud: I think a lot of us are doing this. Not just me. I think a lot of us in our thirties and forties are sitting in apartments watching major events alone and calling it “me time” while our chest is tight and our palms are sweating. I think a lot of us have group chats full of people we don’t talk to and friends we don’t make plans with and a therapist we stopped going to.

I don’t know what the answer is. I really don’t. I’m not going to end this with “comment below if you feel the same” because that feels worse than doing nothing. I’m also not going to end this with “reach out to a friend today!” because that’s not what’s happening here. I can’t even send my best friend a text about a football match. I am not going to magically fix that by reading a wellness newsletter.

Verdict

It’s 7:15 AM now. I’ve been up since 5. I made coffee. The apartment is the same. There’s another match tomorrow at noon. I don’t know if I’m going to watch it alone or not. I probably will.

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