The Sunday Evening Dread

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My boyfriend is on the couch scrolling TikTok with the volume too low, like he’s trying not to exist. The cat is screaming for dinner because it’s 6:47 and I always feed her at 6:30. Outside the window, the sky is doing that weird grey-purple thing October does in Brooklyn, and I can feel my chest tightening like someone is slowly turning a screw behind my ribs. My palms are sweating and I haven’t moved in like four minutes. I don’t even know what I’m dreading yet. But my body does. It started knowing around 4 PM, the same way it always does — this heaviness that isn’t tiredness, this quiet pressure that doesn’t have a name until it’s already inside you. I keep telling myself it’s just the weather. It’s not just the weather. It’s never just the weather. Sometimes I think I’m such a mess and I can’t even explain why.\n\n## The Slow Drop That Starts Around 4 PM\n\nEvery Sunday it’s the same exact sequence. Around 4 PM I’ll be doing something normal — folding laundry, replying to a text from my sister, eating leftover pad thai straight from the container — and then I’ll feel it. Not a thought. A drop. Like the elevator in my chest just started descending. I used to think it was hunger, so I’d eat. Then I thought it was dehydration, so I’d drink water. Then I thought it was just me being ungrateful for the weekend I had. It’s none of those things. It’s the awareness that Monday is now less than 24 hours away, and the body doesn’t care that I had a nice Saturday. The body keeps the score.\n\nLast Sunday it hit me like a wall while I was showering. I had one leg out of the tub, shampoo still in my hair, and I just stood there with water running down my back. My boyfriend knocked on the door and asked if I was okay. I said “yeah, just zoned out.” I was not zoned out. I was already standing in Tuesday morning’s 9 AM meeting, watching myself answer a question I hadn’t prepared for, with shampoo dripping into my eyes.\n\nThis Sunday it hit me at 5:15 PM while I was putting a fork into the dishwasher. The fork slipped and I just held it there. I think I stood there for like two minutes. The cat rubbed against my leg and I didn’t notice. The dread is suffocating. The dread makes the room smaller and the air thicker and my own apartment feels like it’s leaning in on me. The dread is crushing in the way that doesn’t leave bruises but leaves you exhausted by Monday morning anyway.\n\n## I Know I’m Not The Only One Because My Group Chat Won’t Shut Up\n\nThere’s a Slack channel at my old job — yeah I left that job, but the Slack channel stayed — and every Sunday around 7 PM, someone would post the same meme. Always a meme. Usually a photo of a cat looking exhausted or a screenshot from The Office with Michael Scott looking dead inside. The replies were always like “same” or “me too brother” or just the skull emoji. We never talked about what it actually was. We just sent each other evidence that we were all feeling it.\n\nMy friend Erin moved to Berlin two years ago for a product design role. She texts me every Sunday at like 8 PM Berlin time. Sometimes she sends a voice memo that is literally just her sighing for 90 seconds. Once she sent a photo of her face pressed against her kitchen counter. I sent back a photo of my face pressed against my desk. That was the whole conversation. We didn’t need more words. We both knew.\n\nMy coworker Marcus — current job, not the Slack one — told me on Wednesday that he doesn’t sleep on Sunday nights. “Like, ever,” he said. “I get maybe three hours, then I’m just lying there calculating how many hours until my alarm goes off.” I asked him if he’d tried anything. He looked at me like I’d suggested he try witchcraft. “Tried what?” he said. “Magnesium? Melatonin? Breathing exercises?” He shook his head. “No, I just lie there and think about work until it’s time to get up.” Then he laughed, but it wasn’t a real laugh. It was the laugh people do when something hurts and they don’t want to look at it.\n\n## The Sunday To-Do List Lie\n\nI used to think if I could just “prepare for Monday” properly, the dread would go away. So I’d make these elaborate lists. Sunday morning, bright and hopeful, I’d sit down with my notebook and write: “Reply to Asha’s email. Outline Q4 deck. Pay credit card. Water plants. Call mom. Workout.” Six things. Clear. Doable. Sunday evening me would feel organized. Sunday evening me would have her life together.\n\nBut here’s what actually happens. I do maybe two of the things. I pay the credit card. I water the plants. The other four items just sit there on the list getting older and more accusatory. By 8 PM I’m staring at “Reply to Asha’s email” and I haven’t replied to Asha’s email, and now I have to do it tomorrow, and tomorrow I will be tired, and the email will be older, and Asha will think I don’t care about her email. The list was supposed to make me feel better. The list makes me feel worse. The list has betrayed me for like four years in a row now and I keep making new ones.\n\nLast week I tried a different approach. I made a list that said “Nothing.” Just one item: “Nothing.” And then I did nothing. But I felt guilty doing nothing. So the dread didn’t go away. It just changed shape. Now I was dreading Monday AND dreading that I had wasted Sunday. The list betrayed me again, just differently.\n\n## My Therapist Has A Name For It But The Name Doesn’t Help\n\nI didn’t go to therapy for the Sunday dread specifically. I went because I was crying at my desk at 2 PM on a Wednesday for reasons I couldn’t explain, and my GP said “you should probably talk to someone.” The therapist’s name is Linda. Linda has a name for the Sunday thing. She calls it “anticipatory grief for the week ahead,” which is a phrase I find both accurate and completely useless. Knowing the name doesn’t make it stop. Knowing it’s “anticipatory” doesn’t stop me from anticipating. Knowing it’s “grief” doesn’t make me less tired of grieving.\n\nLast month I told Linda, “I think the dread is getting worse.” She said, “Is it possible the dread is staying the same and you’re just more aware of it?” I wanted to throw a pillow at her. I love Linda, but sometimes she does this thing where she reframes my suffering as growth. I am not growing. I am lying on her couch at 4 PM on a Tuesday looking at the ceiling and feeling my stomach tighten because in 96 hours it will be Sunday again.\n\nShe did suggest one thing that has kind of helped. Not a lot. Kind of. She said, “What if on Sunday evenings you just acknowledged the dread out loud? Said it. To yourself, to your partner, to the cat.” So last Sunday I said to my boyfriend, “The dread is here.” He looked up from his phone. “Yeah,” he said. “Same.” That was it. That was the whole moment. But I noticed my chest loosened for maybe ten minutes. Then it came back. The screw kept turning.\n\n## What I Do Now That I Know It’s Not Going Away\n\nI scroll. I’m just going to say it. I scroll. I scroll Reddit and TikTok and the New York Times comments section until my eyes burn. I scroll until it’s 1 AM and then I panic-scroll because I’ve stayed up too late and now Monday is closer than it was before I started scrolling. I scroll because scrolling is the only thing that fills the dread-shaped hole in my Sunday evening. It doesn’t fill it. It just makes the hole quieter for like fifteen seconds at a time. Then the hole yawns again and I scroll harder.\n\nI’ve tried the Sunday evening bath. I’ve tried the Sunday evening yoga video. I’ve tried the Sunday evening herbal tea that cost me $18 at Whole Foods and tasted like wet grass. I’ve tried calling my mom at 7 PM and letting her talk about her neighbor’s dog. None of it works. Some of it is pleasant. None of it stops the dread. The dread is bigger than a bath. The dread is bigger than chamomile.\n\nWhat I’ve started doing — and I can’t believe I’m admitting this — is watching the same four episodes of a cooking competition show every Sunday from 6 PM to 9 PM. It’s not a strategy. It’s a holding pattern. I watch the same people make the same kinds of cakes and I judge them and I eat popcorn and I let my boyfriend explain why the contestant I’m rooting for is going to lose. The dread is still there. I can feel it under the show. But the show makes a small enough hole that the dread can’t always reach me through it.\n\nSometimes it can. Last Sunday at 8:47 PM, during dessert round, the dread broke through. I just started crying. Not sobbing. Just leaking. My boyfriend paused the show and didn’t say anything. He put his hand on my knee. I said, “I’m sorry, I don’t know why I’m crying.” He said, “I do.” Then he unpaused the show and we watched a woman fail to temper chocolate. I felt a little better. Not better. Just a little less alone inside the dread, which is its own kind of better.\n\n## The Part I Can’t Tell Anyone At Work\n\nI am a knowledge worker. I sit at a desk. I write documents. I attend meetings where I say things like “let’s take this offline” and “circle back” and “synergize on this.” I am competent at my job. People think I am fine. People think I am one of the ones who has it together. I am not one of the ones who has it together. I am one of the ones who spends every Sunday evening quietly disintegrating in a way that nobody at work will ever know about because I show up on Monday morning at 9:02 AM with my coffee and my laptop and I am professional and I am smiling and I am dying inside.\n\nLast Monday I had a 10 AM meeting where I presented a Q3 review to my whole team. Twelve people in the room. I was good. I was really good. My manager said, “Great work, this is exactly what we needed.” Nobody knew that six hours earlier I had been crying into a bowl of popcorn because a contestant on a baking show piped buttercream too aggressively. The distance between those two versions of me is insane. The distance between Sunday night me and Monday morning me is the kind of distance that should require a passport.\n\n## Verdict\n\nI don’t know how to make this stop. I don’t know if it stops. I just know it comes back every Sunday around 4 PM like a tide, and I stand there in my kitchen or on my couch or in my shower and I let it come in, and I try not to drown. If you feel this too, I see you. I’m not going to tell you it gets better. I’m just going to tell you that I watched a woman fail to temper chocolate last Sunday and my boyfriend put his hand on my knee, and that was enough for one Sunday.” }